[MASK OR MENACE] IC Contact

[stylistic_disloyalty]

"Funny enough I'm not going to lie here-- I definitely saw your call but I'm going to decide whether or not to respond based on how interesting the message is. I'd make it good. Maybe I'll change your contact to 'Yeah, This is Worth Answering'."


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[stylistic_disloyalty]

you asked for it

and I guess I asked for that too.

I like you because you dont like my bullshit, so many fuckers just treat me like I'm infallible

I'm not

I'm a fucking mess

[flightforfreedom]

i don't like anyone's bullshit
but i did literally ask for it
lesson learned

but i mean all of us are messes, luci

i know i don't totally get the god thing
you can do some fucking incredible things

but far as i can tell you can be just as stupid as the rest of us



but being upset, right now?
being a mess?
that's not stupid

it sucks, and it's awful but it's not stupid

just means you still care about shit

[stylistic_disloyalty]

im not even 20, of course i'm a fucking moron

i just wanted to love somebody before i died

maybe it's better that she doesn't see the end?

[flightforfreedom]

knowing the porter she'll come back right at the worst moment

it doesn't seem to like offering assurances on stability or the lack of it, so who knows

but you still got to, right?

it can't take that from you
hasn't found a way to take our hearts from us

yet, anyway
10 dollars says give it a year

AND AFTER THAT..... UNINTENTIONAL BREAK...............

[stylistic_disloyalty]

no shit. Right as I murder everybody who might keep me from exploding now.

...yeah. I still got to. But

I want more. It didn't feel like enough. Even though she gave me everything. I want more, I wanted to give her more. Tell her more. There was so much bullshit I wouldn't let her see at the beginning.

If it's a year and I'm still here, great. I've got about six months until You Know What. Would be great if she could just not see me like that.

[flightforfreedom]

i don't think it's ever enough

[ Force knew his Dad had been wrecked forever, after his Mom died. And Poe wasn't about to lie and say that things just fixed themselves and that grief disappeared. A day didn't go by where he didn't miss his mom. Or his General. Or Finn. So no platitudes. ]

you might still get a chance

and, well
maybe small blessings then

i think she'd still rather be here for that than not, though [ Even if he's pretty sure that Persephone would stab him for what he promised Luci he would do. ]

but hell

who the fuck knows what happens after, right

we'll either find out or we won't

[stylistic_disloyalty]

no, she can't put me down, and she shouldn't watch. just hearing about it will hurt, but it'll hurt less than in real-time.

[Surely whatever could be imagined would be less horrifying than what would actually transpire. Surely if Luci was there to reassure her that everything was fine, it would be better than holding her breath and hoping everything would be alright.]

Okay I know I'm the patron god of Living in the Moment but

she always used to say it was never going to be okay

and I believed that, because I'm the devil and slowly burning from the inside out thanks to something I never actually wanted

but

now

i want it to be okay and i want to know it will be