[MASK OR MENACE] IC Contact

[stylistic_disloyalty]

"Funny enough I'm not going to lie here-- I definitely saw your call but I'm going to decide whether or not to respond based on how interesting the message is. I'd make it good. Maybe I'll change your contact to 'Yeah, This is Worth Answering'."


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[stylistic_disloyalty]

I had Hazel, I guess. Amaterasu. But she was so obsessed with the Pantheon that I doubt she would have ever told me anything except 'Luci sweetness, you're a star'... [One of the last things Hazel ever said to her. Talk about lies.] My parents weren't around enough to tell me to get my shit together, and when they were, it was about the stupidest things. The swearing, mostly. Like that was the biggest problem I had.

I tried, you know. Finding someone before my time was up was right under 'perform until they can't forget you'. Inanna was nice, they cared, and maybe if that hadn't imploded spectacularly they would have done something about my assholic tendencies. After them, I tried Sahkmet, since we were both kind of awful we could be awful together. She would not have given two shits if I set a baby animal orphanage on fire, she would have eaten me out on the ashes. [What a mistake that turned out to be. Remembering everything she and Sakhmet ever did together, post-breakout throwdown aside, makes Luci feel sick now that she knows how Hazel died. Somehow, she manages to scrunch up her face and hold that in, though. If she starts talking about Amaterasu, she may never stop.]

Maybe if I'd lived longer I would have had Laura. I wanted her, she wasn't willing to go along with my bullshit either, she tried so hard to save me when I was so intent on fucking myself. Nothing new.

I don't know what it is about being here, specifically, or if it's an imPort thing, but everyone is unnervingly willing to attach themselves to other people and care like there's nothing else to do. It was strange when Laura did it to me the first time, and now it's... [She trails off and replays what she just said. She can't really say that she's more connected to people because she's in a new place if the seeds had started to grow back in a cell in London. It was never about where she was, it was probably about the fact that she gave up too soon.]

Maybe it isn't different here. Maybe I just was so sure nobody gave a shit that I fulfilled my own prophecy. [She finally manages to look at Yuri.] Is that what happened to you?

[beautiful_monster]

[ Lucifer's story almost sounds familiar—surrounded by people who were just there, at the very edge of what she was looking for. The difference was she'd actually been trying to find that sense of acceptance; knew what it was she'd been looking for. Yuri, on the other hand, hadn't even realized friendship was something to look for until he looked up one day and realized it was already waiting for him.

He shrugs stiffly and moves on to the next wound, cleaning it a little more gently this time. The conversation feels too important to distract her with unnecessary pain. ]

Not exactly that... I never thought much about whether anyone gave a shit or not. I knew my grandpa loved me, so I didn't care about what anyone else thought. [ Except for judges. ] I had to make money for my family. I was...am the only one who can earn anything, so for a long time I just didn't think anything else mattered. The only thing I thought I needed was skating.